occupy

i need time to write about this one.

all strings

what is it about having our emotions manipulated that excites us?

are our live's not interesting enough?

i could sort of understand watching a movie, reading a book or listening to music.

even dialog between two people could influence our emotions.

but what about racing on the freeway, using weapons, fighting, etc.?

things that put others safety in jeopardy.

these things are senseless, yet i hardly hesitate when the opportunity is presented.

i am a simple minded being.

lamorte

mortality, just a reminder.

i been thinking about death, because like everyone, i have had several health scares and/or near death experiences. Going through something like that could make someone both humble and imprudent.

Many people stay away from the situations or habits that put them through that close encounter, while others take it as a challenge from "life".

It's hard to find a balance between the two, at least for me.

evolve

as i get older, more often i get the feeling that i should be in a serious relationship with someone.

why?

is it because most of my friends are and i'm a product of the influence around me?

maybe i have some unresolved issues from my childhood that drive me to look for acceptance in other people, particularly in female counter parts.

whatever it is, it sucks and i don't want it.

i want to learn to love myself before i could spend time with someone else.