i am the scum of the earth.

i dont even know how i got here

but here i am, stealing, lying, cheating

i'd like to believe that my good deeds will balance me out

but i am full of shit and if there is a hell im already there

is this the point where people say fuck it and become full on addicts?

lets find out.

no friends, just enemies

punx///maxwell's

punx:

although i love a lot of things about the punk scene, i hate how exclusive it could feel sometimes. punk is supposed to be about progression, so alienating people just because they're not vegan or edge or if they don't listen to the same music is plain dumb. we claim to be better than most "normies"
but that in itself is an egotistical ideal, shouldn't we be accepting of anyone regardless of age, sex, ideals, etc.? you can call me out on this, not perfect either, just something thats been bugging me.

maxwell's:

A lot of people were offended today by a racist post made by the owner of Maxwell's pizza in SB.

in no way do i agree with his behavior, but to be honest a lot of people i know are not any better.

yes, his post was completely idiotic and ignorant, but when i hear some of my peers talk about how much better they are or how they hate other people because they don't share similar ideals, it doesn't make you any better than this guy.

like i said on the post above, people are just trying to find ways to separate each other and not have to deal with learning to tolerate others. HOW ARE YOU BETTER THAN A RACIST?

in the end, what you both are is a product of the environment you grew up in, whether it be with racist parents or culture is irrelevant. you become what you are taught.

but what can i do about it? you say?

STOP BEING FUCKING LAZY.

it takes work to learn to tolerate others and its not easy. I'm not saying you have to like everyone you meet

but at least try to relate to them at a level, any level for that matter, and you will be on your way to breaking this fucking chain of intolerance that we live in.

and on another note,

For everyone thats "boycotting" Maxwell's

FIRST FIND ANOTHER VENUE TO THROW SHOWS AND THEN OPEN YOUR MOUTH

because obviously you know of SOOOO many venues in the LA area that you could afford to loose one.

you say you care so much about music, find a venue, book the shows and fix the problem then go ahead and "boycott" and talk all you want.

you can call me out on this last note too. thank you.

black curtain

the black curtain

stops the light from entering my room

occupy

i need time to write about this one.

all strings

what is it about having our emotions manipulated that excites us?

are our live's not interesting enough?

i could sort of understand watching a movie, reading a book or listening to music.

even dialog between two people could influence our emotions.

but what about racing on the freeway, using weapons, fighting, etc.?

things that put others safety in jeopardy.

these things are senseless, yet i hardly hesitate when the opportunity is presented.

i am a simple minded being.

lamorte

mortality, just a reminder.

i been thinking about death, because like everyone, i have had several health scares and/or near death experiences. Going through something like that could make someone both humble and imprudent.

Many people stay away from the situations or habits that put them through that close encounter, while others take it as a challenge from "life".

It's hard to find a balance between the two, at least for me.

evolve

as i get older, more often i get the feeling that i should be in a serious relationship with someone.

why?

is it because most of my friends are and i'm a product of the influence around me?

maybe i have some unresolved issues from my childhood that drive me to look for acceptance in other people, particularly in female counter parts.

whatever it is, it sucks and i don't want it.

i want to learn to love myself before i could spend time with someone else.